Story Of a Gerl

2010-03-26T00:05:00.003+08:00

Apologies

Ok if u think im wrong den im sorie... i dont remember doing anything, n i dont have any motive to stab u from the back... To think back all of this is really confusing... i know somebody is telling you all this... N deep inside i know that its all a lie...

Someone told me to just relax and just dont worry if i really didnt do anything... Ok i did as told... coz i know that i didnt do anything...

U keep on scolding me and throwing badwords at me... But u didnt really said what did i do wrong... I asked but u said to reflect on myself... I dont like to make things drag... By asking me to search for what i did, that takes a long time... N in my case, i think i would never find it...

I am positive that this is all a misunderstanding... i send u what i thought and u said that u were still finding out the real truth... what now?

Im really tired of u making me cry for no reason... I've cried and cried but it just not enough... I'm still sad of what u did... u did this before... and u blurted that u want to make me hate u...

Whatever happens i will still treat u as a bestfren... no matter what... If what i guessed is true... This is a msg that u really have to read and think over...

Anything that happens is in his hands and u're not sure too of the outcome... If u do this, i will be sad too, the same feeling that i'll feel if the thing that i'm saying here really happens... So it's no use if u shove me away now...

I love you as my bestfriend and nothing can change that... Please think it through and dont do this to me... If i really did something, confront me... I would really like to know what did i do wrong... U know people learn by their mistakes... So tell me whats my mistake... I'm sure i didnt mean anything... i know i would never do anything to hurt my fren.... ape lag bestfren? If i really did something. I'm really2 sorie... from the bottom of my heart.. Really...

...

2010-03-24T19:45:00.004+08:00

Him

I've been sort of ignoring him for this past few weeks... Coz i'm busy and all... I've really started to give up on him... I mean its not clear what he wants... Like i said, this minute he's here and the next minute he's not...

But i didn't know why... Suddenly he asked me to hang out with him... Its like out of the blue you know... I mean i really really didn't expect it... Ya well... but i'm still deciding... on whether to go ahead or not.. Its like fifty-fifty... this part of me wants to go but another part of me doesn't want to.... Urgh!! I really dont understand myself too... We'll see..

Randomness part 3

Some people don't believe in long distance relationships... Some say its bull... Hahahah... But you never know the feeling of it if you're not in it... Sometimes this kind of relationships works out well but most of the time it doesn't work out at all...

As people always said, online dating is equals to dissapointment, heartache and betrayal... Ya most people assume that, That's why they don't get themselves involve in it...but sometimes u cant help it you know... Trying it out just to see whats it like... But when u meet someone that u just cant let go of... Thats the scary part... Trying to make everything real and not just well technology... hah...

But if you want that something really badly... you have to really believe in it... Coz if you really do believe in it so much, you will eventually do something to make it happen...

Heees this is what happens when randomness strikes... !! Aniwaes here's the photos that i promised to post... Til den..

Busy

2010-03-23T00:29:00.009+08:00

So much to do... So little time...

I know i look ugly... I just woke up.. Haha...

Hey hey!! Sorie for not updating guys! I've been so damn busy this weeks... First I've been occupying my time with chalet that my ex CA and my future CA organised... which is Aunty Jo and Ms Joei Chua respectively...

My class chalet was a blast... I had so much fun that the time just flew by without me noticing...

On the 1st day... I reached the chalet, which is at Downtown East, around 5.30 pm... I went there with Faz and An... my two besties... Haha... When we reached the chalet, not all were present yet... The first thing that we had to do was write our farewell postcards, so called la... to aunty jo... That is for the box that we are planning on giving aunty jo after saying our farewells to her...

When Aunty jo came... we grouped altogether in the small chalet and say a few words to her... one by one... Only two of my classmates cried... Chee Leng and Eileen... Hahahah... I didn't cry coz truthfully, i wasn't prepared on my speech... I just said whatever came to mind... Heees...

After that, we had Aunty Jo watch the video that wendy and company made especially for her... After all that, everyone was hungry... So Didi start the fire for the BBQ and BBQ-ed some food for everyone...

Everyone took turn on mending the BBQ... There was marinated chicken wings, Sambal-ed Stingray and chicken satay and mutton satay... Heaven Babe!!

I catched up with everybody and just mingled around with each other... And then it was time for Aunty Jo to leave... She had to do something...

By then the noght was still young... We talked, BBQ, eat, talked, BBQ, eat... explore... Then i borrowed Wen Bin and company's bikes to just cycle around Pasir Ris Park... I went cycling with Faz and Lina.. It was refreshing really... I love to cycle... I can cycle the whole Singapore if u asked me to... But Faz and Lina pancit... Hahahaha... Cycle abit, exhausted already...

So we head back to the chalet and BBQ some more... By 10 pm i think... The chinese girls and guys have already conquered every part of the bed in the chalet... and FYI there was 4 super single beds in the chalet... Imagine that...

So that left us no choice but to stay up all night... It wasn't boring though... Coz altough we're only sitting there, lazing around, we didn't ran out of topics to talk about... It was fun...

Ouh haha... And while some ang mohs were having their dinner next to us, we were sort of jamming... Syaril played the guitar... and hilmi sang to it... Song after Song... It was really good... The ang mohs clearly enjoyed it coz they were looking and smiling too... But they think what, free show ah?? Hheeheheh... Just kidding...

After a long night... I slept at around 8 am and that was also because Lina asked me to sleep coz my face was like a zombie... So damn sleepy... so i slept and woke up around 12 pm...

On the 2nd day, we didn't do much... just BBQ-ing some leftovers from yesterday that we left in the fridge... Ouh and u remember the ang mohs rite? Ya well dun noe why they gave us fruits early in the morning... Noon actually... It was Syaril and me who accepted it from them... Coz we were the first to wake up that day... Then I sat there smoking my first stick for that day while he made songs... It was funny really... Hahhahaha... After every woke up, me, Faz and Lina went inside the chalet to just laze around... We watched the tv from 7.30 pm til 11.00 pm... Hahahah...

In between that, Hisyam came with some friends... By the time we stepped foot out of the chalet to the BBQ area, 2 of hisyam's friends were already gone...

Soon when the moon showed in the sky at around 12.30 am... We were already headed inside to go to bed bu then Hisyam asked us whether we want to go to the redhouse to explore... N so we went... It was a 10 mins walk...

The redhouse was an abandoned building... Its actually a restricted area... So if we get caught we could get arrested under the law of tresspassing...

After hisyam put a long lighted cigarette on the teeth of the stone lion... They went in... They have to go in even numbers, and the lighted cigarette is for the duration of how long they were allowed inside... That was what they believe la...

First Hisyam, who climbed over the tall gate.. Then Hilmi... AFter that An went over... Finally Syaril... After they were all inside, I gave their phones back, which they let me hold for them while they were climbing... Just as I stepped back from the gate... A car was speeding rite towards us...

I automatically shouted 'Police' when I realised its a police car... The guys straightaway ran towards the side of the gate where the police can't see them even if the police used the torchlight to shine, they wouldn't be seen... The police stopped right in front of us... Heres what happened...

Policeman: What are you guys doing here? Where u guys from?

Lina: We're just seeing this place... We're just walking around... We're from our chalet... Downtown East there..

Policeman: How do you guys noe bout this place?

Me: Stories friend tell us...

Policeman: Is any of your friends inside?

Lina: No... Its only the four of us...

Policeman: Were you guys planning on going inside?

Lina: No... We don't dare go inside...

Me: Ya, And if we wanna go inside... How do you expect we do that? We girls sey...

Policeman: Ya... Good... If for me, I wouldn't dare go inside too... There aren't just ghosts inside You know... Drug addicts and murderers inside too...

( Policeman was a guy... Mind You... Scaredy Cat! )

All: Ouhkay.. Hahahaha...

Policeman: Ok i need you guys to fill in your particulars in here... ( handing us a notepad)

All: Urmm okae...

(we finished filling in then we gave him back the notepad)

Policeman: You guys better head back to your chalet..

All: Okae...

After the police drove off... We walked back... but the guys were still inside... Just as I was about to send them a msg, asking them to go out now... Lina stopped me... Coz she spotted the police car just a few metres away parked behind a yellow mini cooper with their headlights turned off... Smart rite them? But we are Smarter... We stayed put there until the police really drove off... Then i straightaway send the msg while walking back there...

When i reach there, they are all out already... Turns out that the msg that i cancelled earlier was already snet... Hahaha... Oops... Lucky the police didn't see anything... And so we headed back to the chalet making alot of noise along the way... Hahaha...

When we reached the chalet, we ( me, lina n faz) straightaway headed for the bed coz we are damn Sleepy... Heh...

Everybody sleeped except for An, Syaril and Sidek (hisyam's friend..)... When i Woke up at around 7.30 am... I got to know that those fools who didn't sleep go and took our pics sleeping... But luckily my whole face was covered with the blanket... Heh...

On the 3rd Day... We need to book out from there at 10.30 am... So i quickly showered when i woke up... Heees... After everybody was ready, we headed out and went home... Heess...

The Class Chalet was really really a blast and most importantly it was a bonding for SE... My class as people know is the most naughtiest class and the most stubborn one... But to my surprise, most teachers wants us... As My CA was leaving the school... We needed a new CA... We got to know that most teachers was fighting to get us... Heee... I didnt know why too... As I was saying This chalet was a bonding... not like any of the outings we've had... This chalet was the bomb... Hahahaha... Yea... We've grown closer thru these 3 days... Too bad Aisah can't come... If not it'll be much more fun... Heee...

Here's the photos that we took, not that much though...

Lina n me

Syaril, me, Lina

We're trying to make a cute face... Heh..

Me n Syaril... The one like a ghost behind there is Dhurgaes...

An and Faz

Joey , Sim Yee and Me

Lina n Me

Me n Syaril... Guess he's talking to Aisah...

Me and Faz in the Food Court hahaha... We're hungry...

Me, Faz and An

Plus Lina

I just woke up i think or was about to go to bed..

After I got back from the chalet... On the Sunday... My company had a Promotion Seminar... I didn't wanna go really... And they didn't give a damn actually... But i Had to go coz my upline was being promoted so we had to be there... Hahahah...

I was really embarrased coz I wore my skirt and a Blouse tucked in... with high heels and my blazer folded on my arm... Feels like a business woman... It feels good though.. But so many ppl were looking... just feel out of place... I didnt take any pics there... Forgot... But took some when i got home... Heee...

I cant seem to publish it now... Will do when i get the chance next time k... Til den..

Ouh and here's a msg to someone special:

I love You... lol...

Life now

2010-03-11T20:51:00.007+08:00

Life

Everybody has problems and most people have different problems but the most common problem is financial... Finance in my family nowadays is really very tight... After my father left us, my mother hasn't found a job... So she's only coping with the money that's left from the selling of the woodlands home... I really pity my mother eventhough sometimes I make her suffer even more... reaching home at dawn and not even leaving her a message or a call to update her or something...I mean we tend to do that all the time but unintentionally rite...

I wouldn't say i hate my father, I really don't... I still love him... But i just don't like the way he treats my mother... He's trying to show her or rather prove to her that without him, we all die.... Yes, i admit, then we always depend on him... for school wise and everything else concerning money.. But now, the way he's trying to prove is very very harsh to me... and in other ways, it may seem like he's trying to make us fall too... Why? Why does he have to do that? I know letting go is a very difficult thing to do... But sincerely from my heart... I can see that he's at the fault... And he just can't accept the fct that he's the sole reason for all of this... As i was saying I don't hate my father, I just despise what he did, and what he's still doing now..

School

Yes!! Exams finished... And i Know I did my very best for SVE and WTB but HRA... Believe me, is really going to be a flop! I didn't even touch my HRA book. I know that was wrong... but i just don't have the mood you know... But thinking back now... If i were to study, I would have nailed that paper, coz everybody was gloating and saying that the paper was easy... OMG! I feel like shouting... "EASY??" Hahahaha... But i know it was my fault that i didn't study that's why I kept quiet.

On this coming monday, 15/3, there's gonna be a class chalet... and i'm really looking forward to it... It's gonna be a blast... The chalet is at Costa Sands and Aunty Jo booked a 3D2N scheme... I doubt we're going to sleep... We're going to have fun and we're going to spend some quality time with each other to bond u know... which is good la... Hahahaha I just really hope the couples won't wander off and you know... Hah!

As u all were wandering... Today's the first day of holidaysand I don't have a freaking job... I mean a stable job... I just don't know what I'm going to do for this three weeks... No money, No job, No plans besides the chalet la... Walan eh! Hahahaha... I will think of something to do... for sure...

Besties

Yesterday after school, Faz came to my house and she brought her guitar and her laptop... We were supposed to wait for An until 6....But this badigiol here... His class finishes at 7.30 pm so... We wait while singing and recording a few songs... I did the singing and Faz did the strumming... Didn't think i could sing rite? Yeah me too ... Heee...

And so when An finally came along... Faz got hungry and so we went to the long john silver's which is at Commonwealth... We ate the new combo which has the shrimp, fish and chicken all inside... Only $5.50... Murah je... heee... Then we lepak at the playground around that area too.. Our plan was to head off home at around 2 am... But when the clock strikes 3 am without us noticing... An was lost... He didn't know whether to go home or not if he went home rite there and then, he'll be sleeping outside... So i asked him to sleep at my house.. He didnt want... Giving reasons that he feels awkward coz he'll be the only guy in the house... Then tk jadi... Nevermind...

So we just lepaks at the big 24hrs McDonalds there around commonwealth jgk... Coz by then, Faz got hungry again... Haha... I didn't ate.. no appetite.., by then I was so damn sleepy!... Den we went to the busstop and waited for the first bus... And while i was talking... They kept asking me to shut up... Coz they say I look like a ghost when I talk... I didn't know whether thats true or not...hahahaha! Kalau nk suroh aku diam, ckp aje tkmo beri alsan... Hah! But i don noe, coz Faz's hair standing up when she described my face.. After the bus came, we went our separate ways and went home...

Love

Currently I dont love anybody now.. The feelings just kind of mixed up u know... Unsure to be exact... Being single is an awkward thing after a break up from a 1 year relationship.. I wont say I miss Abu... Coz i dont... really... And even if i say it, Later Faz and An won't be friends with me anymore ... Hahahah... That really cracks me up... It shows that they care bout me ... Aww... Heee... As i was saying... I dont miss Abu... I just miss the companion, the warmth, the love from somebody...

Yes, being single, I feel freedom... I am free to do what i want, go where i want, with who i want without reporting strength to anybody... That's the good thing... But the bad thing is that, I feel alone... Nobody to love me... gaze into my eyes when i'm talking... Staring at my face when i'm busy doing something or even touched by someone special...

Complaints aside... This is what i chose when i decided to go alone... Without anyone... But i'm sure... Someday I will be found by him... Not me find him... He find me... hahahahah LOL!

Him

Screw him... I dont know what to say anymore... He keeps spite-ing me when the answer that he's looking for is already in front of his eyes... I just don't freaking care anymore... Whatever he wanna do... just do la... Hmmph...

Oh btw just now I heard noises like gunshots near my block there... Then mama and me go and kaypo... You know what we saw? Freaking fireworks!! Better believe it! Freaking fireworks near our estates... Hahahaha... That really made my day man...

Persevere

2010-03-09T20:52:00.004+08:00

Life..

Lysa has been discharged now... She's going to be okay la... I was really freaking out when i heard that my lil sis got admitted at first... Her temperature then was 39.7 degrees... For a child her age... that's quite high... Now she's fine... Alhamdulilah...

Hmm... At home everything's going fine... My mum seems okay now bout everything... But yesterday i think i didn't know why my dad called me... out of a sudden i received a call... And he asked me questions like where i'm working now and all...

Hmmph... i dont hate my father... its just that... ummm... i feel like he left us like that... coz then we depended on him too much for everything... But now when he left suddenly... we were all alone trying to fend ourselves and not seeing him anywhere near us...

Him...

I'm really trying very very hard to read him... his body language... facial expressions... it all seem impossible... I hate feeling like this... feeling naked... Now everything he does is really a question... actually full of questions... This minute he's here but the next minute he's not...

A bird said that he's really unsure of his feelings... He's really messed up with he's love life right now... But i don't blame him la... i wasn't supposed to know actually... but come on... do u like it if u're already hoping and ur hope keeps on growing bigger and bigger but now u feel it really on the ledge and about to fall... and u know if it fall it'll crash really hard leaving an unforgetable impact for u to bring throughout the future to come...

No right... A little advice for everybody... Be certain of ur feelings then go tell the one... dont go and tell coz of peer pressure or anything... and love out of sincerity from the heart not coz of pityness... coz i despise people who take someone out of pity...

I have a fren who have already been in a relationship with his boyfriend for 2 years and all of us thought that they were going great as we've never seen or heard of them fighting... But a few days later... the guy broke it off saying that he cannot tahan olreadi... u noe why?? coz he said he didn't love that girl actually... he pitied her and he's only lying to himself about his feeling towards her...

I mean come on... Why the hell wait for 2 freaking years?? Why not just reject her kindly from the start... ?? Can rite?? For those wondering what happened to the girl...

ummm she commited suicide...

Tak la... Just Kidding!! She feels devastated about it but she confided in us and now she's doing fine... heeeee....

School..

Study study study!! Now is examinations week... Hahahah funny how i say this n here i am blogging this... k2... i really gtg liao... pape picets!! hahahahah

Fuck!

2010-03-04T02:03:00.001+08:00

Fuck!!

Lysa admitted in hospital!!

TSK!!!

visited her olreadi... hope she'll get well soon...

What's going on here?

2010-02-28T17:56:00.004+08:00

What's going on here?

I don't know from where or why i can see what mood the person's in.. Actually by their body language , i can know what the person is thinking... not exactly.. But roughly... And mostly all my intrepertation is correct... The one's that i cannot see, is the one i love the most... Cause i can't quite read the person, if there's feelings mixed inside...

I know this guy likes me... Dont ask me how i know... But i just know... At first i didn't notice anything and i acted as per normal around him... But when a bird told me that maybe this guy likes me... I was shocked, I was really damn shocked... Coz u know what, for me... this guy is really out of my league...

From then on, I can't help myself from noticing every single thing he does around me... We've been spending a lot of time together lately... And it really becomes dreadful for me to watch... Cause i can't deny it, but i'm starting to fall for this guy too.. He's not what i expected from a guy... He's way more... This past few weeks noticing him... I find him gentle though he seems rough to others...

But the thing is, he certainly likes to spite me... To see whether I like him or not... We can't avoid it, guys and their egos... Hahahah... He's just scared that he'll be humiliated if i reject him in the future... So he's collecting all his evidence to be sure that i like him too...

And you know what, i showed him... whether accidentally or unaccidentally, that I don't like it when he talks about other girls... He just don't get it.. He just can't see through my actions... Anyways why wait? Why not you just tell me that you like me... And if really I reject him... urmmm... take it like a man la... Correct not?? hahahahaha...

Cause you may never know when somebody else sweep me away from you forever... you know like the song...

" Jangan tunggu lama2,nanti lama2 dia diambil orang.."

HahahaI really want you to speak up... Please before i lose my patience and charge at you... eh? boleh gitu eh?

I want to end my entry with a message to my bestfriend...

" Hey, aku tau kau mara ngn aku... Don't deny it... Cause from the way you msged me, i Know... Your tone is showing that you're angry...And i don't know where's my fault in this case... But i really did what i say i did... You're the one who ignored me... Nvm la... I dont know why, But i know I'm in the wrong... I should've called you or try to find a way to get to you... With that, I wanna say i'm sorry... A million times... Of all people, you should know why i did it... Because he was there... I'm not saying that he is more important than you... No... But you knew, you're my bestfriend... I've been looking forward to go... From friday... But tk jadi... Now an opportunity shines in front of me... I grabbed it... I'm really really sorie... I don't want to lose you as my bestfriend... Cause you're the only person that i've opened up to... And i treasure my friends... especially you..."

Let's hope she forgives me and we can live happily ever after... hahahahah...

Hey

2010-02-26T17:56:00.005+08:00

Things Change...

Hey... I've been kind of a good girl this past few days.. Going to school everyday... Tapi Lambat tetap lambat la... School is fun... I tried my best on all of my modules... But because i've always been late to school, my attendance dropped... And i got debarred for SVE ( Service Excellence) and Lifeskills...

But i think its going to be okay as i'll get my teachers to sign my appeal form so that i won't be debarred. Another thing is that i've noticed since September last year, i've been close to Faz ( one of my classmates) but now i find myself much more closer to An... one of my classmates too... i've been chilling out with them these days...

They are a fun bunch... Yesterday before chilling near my house there... We went to Queensway Shopping Centre and bought jeans and some t-shirts for An... After that, yea... we chilled la... Smoked, joked around and just talk crap to each other... Hahahaha...

I miss hanging out with my clique... Azura, Lina and Aisah... Aisah's not that bad uh, coz she's getting more and more closer to the guy's clique due to ehem2.. Some secret reasons that i cannot specify here... Hahaahahahaha... as i were saying... i miss them... Especially Lina and Azura... I do wanna hang out with them, but I have my reasons why i hang around with faz and an more...

Though the reason's not clear... I still find them much more fun to hang around with... Thanks to finding Hilmi's present that time... that really brought us much more closer...

Hah... I'm just bored, that's why i post this boring entry here... Looking forward sangat nk klua kn... tapi semue tak jadi...Not semue la... Just 2 person only... an and faz... hahahahahaha.... An penat, Faz tak jadi due to some personal problems... I was really pissed off... Really... Sot gile... But what to do... So here i am posting this blog entry... Hahahahah... I'm gonna end this with a msg that i got from Aisah yesterday night...

" True and touching story: A girl and a guy were speeding over 100 km/h on a motorcycle...
Girl:Slow down, I'm scared...
Guy: No, this is fun...
Girl: no it's not, pls slow down...
Guy: then tell me u love me and give me a hug...
(The girl did so)
Guy: Can u take my helmet and put it on ur head.... it's really bothering me...

The next days in the papers: ' A motorsycle crashed into a building due to brake failure... 2 ppl were in the crash, but only 1 survived '

The truth was that halfway thru.... the guy realise that the brakes were not werking, but he did not wan the girl to noe... So he had the girl hugged him and tell him she love him 1 last time... then he had her put on his helmet so she would live, even if it meant he would die.. "

Sweet kan??? Tapi sedeh sey... Hahahahahah.... i just wish i could find somebody that would love me like that... Tata... :)

One tired day

2010-02-21T23:10:00.006+08:00

One Tired Day

Just now i went to my old house at woodlands coz i had to follow my mother settle some unfinished business there... hahaha... about the selling of the house thingy laa... After the family came to see the house... we started to head to Causeway Point coz both of us was really starving but midway Mama yah called saying she'd like to meet us at Lot 1... Well wat to do... My mother wanted to so i just followed... heh...

We reached Lot 1 at about 5 plus and had our sapedek! hahahaha... i ate fish n chips and my mother had sirloin steak.... Guess where we ate?? Food court daaa... hahahah ya la... kite bukan kaye tau... haha... I followed these two makciks shop some slimming pills... hahahah that really cracks me up... Aniwae... my mother then cut her hair and when she finished, i didn't even realise she's done it... hahahaha no difference... pfft...

Mama Yah

On the way home... i msged my dad and he was like... umm him... the same laa... i didn't really noe whats his motive... he has the thing that me and my lil sis needed but he asked me to go ask my mom and my grandmother... tsk! Why not just give rite...?! Irritating sia he...

Mama

Enough bout him... I wish i can find a superman that can fly me away in his arms and get me out of this freaking mess... i've really had enough of this shit... I lost my job bcoz of this... no mood for studying and all... why can't they solve their own problems? Fuck... i'm going crazy i think... Oh well...

Nobody knows what i'm going through... Being the eldest gives me the most responsibilty... standing by my mother and coping with my studies... and also pacifying my lil sis who's 7 in going through all of this... My 2nd sis... well i think she can cope... she's always with her boyfie... so i think she's okay... If u understand by now what i'm telling u guys... well yaaa... my mother and my father are filing for a divorce... Its not a big deal for me coz that's their life and i have no intentions to pry... shucks... i dont even care... But why do i cry silently so no one noes... portraying a smile here and there whenever ppl's looking... acting all happy around my loved ones... why do i have to be the strong one... i feel sadness too... really... why do i cry SILENTLY? When my father and mother discussed this with the whole family... Why was i the one NOT crying... ? And when they are all sober... i'm the one crying... Fuck... i'm really going crazy... The reality of life sucks sometimes... but just get up and face it... also not forgetting to pray to god that all of this will stir itself and somehow something or someone will make me hapie... Til den... Nite2...

Ummm

2010-02-21T03:04:00.003+08:00

Randomness part 2

Have u ever feel like u are the ugliest person alive?? Well, i have... And that was after what my so called fren said that i wasnt at all good looking... tsk... Even if i were the ugliest person who has eyes like a witch or nose like pinocchio or skin like just being scraped by sand paper... U noe what?? U dont have any right to say that to my face...

Coz everybody has their own tastes in seeing a person... Even if i were the person that was the ugliest alive ever... U can fucking keep it to urself sista!! Hah...

I dont mean to say anything... But everybody has their strengths and weaknesses.... I do too... i suck in something but i strive in something else... hahaha...

I like it wen this randomness strikes... its like giving advice to myself and also others whom it may concern... This thing that i'm pondering about is Self-esteem... Everything varies from the way ur self-esteem is... if it's high... thats good, coz u wont probably believe what ppl say... but if its low... with hearing every criticism... it just keeps getting lower and lower and even lower...

Just think ppl... if u're not pretty, there are ppl much more uglier than u... If u're fat, there are much more fatter... and if u're short, there are much more shorter...

Another thing that's been bothering me is that why do guys like to take things slow... and when they they say slow... they really mean SLOW... hahahahah... Guys dont u noe, gerls have that certain instinct to know whether a guy likes her or not... Bukan ckp shiok sendiri... we just have the feeling u noe... heee...

Word of advice... don stall too long... coz gerls are impatient... Just say it coz u'll be regreting it gravely if u were too late... ouh u noe the song...
" jgn tunggu lama2 nnt lama2 dia diambil org..."
Hah that's the one... hahahahahaahahahahaah...
Just tell the person you like them... and also when u noe that ur feelings are serious... dun lead ppl on and then break their heart just like that...

pfft... i'm out... it's 3.26 am now... i'm wiped out... good morning... heeee...

Hey

2010-02-21T01:27:00.010+08:00

Updates cleared ppl!

So many things have happened since this past few weeks... Its too much for me to elaborate with words... so i'll just show u the pics k...

Dont mind my laziness... it goes from down to up... Sowie...

This was when we are going home from the evening that we had searching for Hilmi's belated birthday present... We were just messing with his hair... At first it turned out like this...

But after more fussing with his hair here and there... it came out like this... I admit its quite handsome... hahaha tgk la sape buat rambot kn?? <>

I was supposed to hurry as faz and an was waiting outside the shop for us (me,aly,mama n mama yah) ... but the shirt/dress was so nice that i thought,since i couldn't buy it... why not take a few pics of me in it here and there... Heee...

Some more pics... heeeee...

After a long day at the beach we decided to go for an early dinner... N my face looks fat... i think i was having a headache that's why my face like that..

After the Aisah finished the game... we headed straight to Siloso beach to freshen up.... Our bodies were icky so we thought we'd go in the water to cool ourselves off... Unfortunate ly it was just me n aisah who went bathing in the ocean... Lina forgot to bring her bathing clothes.. tsk...

It was supposed to be a joke wen lina zoom in on my ugly face... but it turn out ok... i like how my hair looks... haha...

The first pic i took when we got there...

Arrogant

2010-01-27T18:29:00.005+08:00

Guys

Have u ever heard people said that guys only wanna use girls? I've heard it many times... I used to resent that thought coz i think there are guys that wans to be frens with us with sincerity... Gerls are always hoping for the best in guys and seeing them as gentleman in their lives... So why dont guys think the same way too?

But what i've seen these past few days is that the statement that i just said earlier is really true without a doubt.... Guys only want one thing... yes u know it, i don have to say what it is... Out of 100%, only 10% are not like that... Those among this 10% are the ones who u can make a commitment with and never worry bout anything coz they have alot of sincerity in their hearts...

I didnt say that all gerls are sincere... some can be quite a bitch but most of them are just normally hoping and yearning for love from a guy that is also looking for love...

All i can say is some guys suck... really... they simply dont know how to treat a gerl... And guys can be arrogant at times if they want to... Urgh!

Trying and Trying until u suceed...

2010-01-25T20:12:00.005+08:00

Allysa's 7th Birthday..

...Yesterday was Lysa's birthday... First i went to suntec to look for my baby sis' birthday present... It wasn't that hard to find a present for a child aged 7... But i want to look for something that she really likes and i want to see that she's really excited when opening the present... We looked and looked and looked... Finally we found this chocolate box that has various choices in it... So she will feel pretty pleased with the many choices...

We went home and celebrated her birthday... Wasn't that much but my whole family was there and that was pretty enough... everyone's happy and Lysa was too

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Randomness

Some ppl said that finding ur soulmate isn't hard and that it was easy coz there are many choices... Those ppl who said that must've already found their soulmate... but for us who's still searching find it very annoying and sometimes rather tired until we feel like giving up... But we simply can't... Bcoz a soulmate is needed by everyone... and finding one will be our permanent job now... hahaha...

Maybe i got it all wrong... Maybe soulmates arent meant to be found... but it needs to find itself to us... hah... Correct or not? While we go out searching and searching... maybe we didn't notice that our soulmates are actually in front of us... right under our nose... heee....

But how would we know... The least that we can do wen serving this time... we will have to just be patient and let God write his story... the way how he wants to... I'm sure i'll find one in no time...

But bare in mind... do not be picky Adelyn... hahahaha...

Its different now..

2010-01-12T20:31:00.004+08:00

It's different now...

Being single and all.. everything's change from the way i do things to the way i spend my time now... Everything's revolved around work, family and skool now... I can't help but to say.. i miss having a boyfriend but well... don't fret adelyn... u're still young and there are alot of fishes in the sea... different colours and different shapes... hmm... That means there are different guys out there that's still out there and someone much more better who deserves me... Hah... I'm talking crap... heeee... nvm... Now i've been busy doing something that i am really passionate about... My passion for Indonesian Sinetrons have returned... Now i'm currently watching this sinetron Nikita... My attraction's for these sinetrons mainly concerns the guys in it... if they are good to look at, then i'll watch la... hahaha... This sinetron i'm currently watching stars Dirly Idol and Dude Harlino... Hahaha... To all dude harlino's fan... too bad... he's already proposed to me... we're getting married 2012... hahhahahahahahaahahahahah...

Dirly Idol

Dude Harlino

hahahah... well tk sala kn skali2 gile...heeee... Btw skool's started... nothings new.. syllabus still the same... But My Baby sis...Lysa... has started Primary 1... cute kn... heee... anw her birthday's coming up too... on the 24th jan... Hapie advanced birthday chicha....

Lysa in her school uni...

Happy New Year!!!!

2010-01-05T15:54:00.011+08:00

Happy New Year!!

I've been so busy with work and my celebrations for the new year haven't really finished...

On new year's eve... i didn't have a plan actualli... so i called yana to ask whether she had a plan or not... She claimed that she has tickets for the tv show 'Celebrate 2010'... And there wasn't any ticket for me... so i decided to meet up with q for the countdown and just meet up with yana later... Then when i already made plans with q, on the last min yana msged and said that she has an extra ticket but only for me and none for q... we pitied q and tried to find one for her... but seriously there was none... heee.. so i canceled of my date with q and meet up with yana at about 7pm that day...

First we went to Beach Road to grab something to eat... I ate the Nasi Ayam Sambal... and it was quite good... The reason we went there was because yana was craving for the Kway Teow Kuah... So after the meal we went straight to the Marina Float... I was hoping to catch Sleeq singing... coz i really love their songs... The sung 4 songs... i didn't get to hear all... But i got to hear the last song they sang... which is their latest on... Moviestar...

After that theres various performances from the idol finalists, Dayang, N the taiwan group... Da Mouth.... I don noe the group... obviusly la... but i like them already... coz the girl in the group was so damn cute....

Ok so immediately after the taiwan group sang a couple of songs... they gathered all the stars on the stage for the countdown... too bad the fireworks cannot be seen that clearly from the seat that we're seated on... so we had to move down to the float area to see much more clearly... and believe me the fireworks was beautiful... too bad i wasn't with someone... coz it'll be the perfect moment...

So ya... we took some pics... not some... alot actualli... the fireworks lasted for 8 mins... and there was and afterparty... we danced through the songs and it was pure fun actualli... i'm so glad i could spend the day with ena, sara, yana and also ena's beauboi...

After the afterparty we ate at the cheese prata house... den we went to the Marina Barrage and just chill there before we call it a day and head home...

Eniugh of this

2009-12-29T02:11:00.003+08:00

Enough of this...

Wen i decide to leave you... i didn't noe i could handle it.. But now i realised how far better off i am without u.. To say that i didn't love u, i did... But freedom called me the moment i've realised u werent treating me rite.. I gave u many chances and opportunities to prove to me that u cud change especially for me... But u didnt take that opportunity seriously.. u continued ur attitude and really by then its getting worse.. the feelings of love immediately changed to hate and despise to you.. Slowly i built the courage to say to you that i want us to go our separate ways.. At first u didnt take that seriously too as usual.. u thought i was just pms-ing rite.. So as soon as u realised i wasn't playing around.. u cried and whined for me to give u another chance.. If u count the chances i've given u, u would understand why i didn't give anymore chances now.. I'm hurt too hearing u cry.. u're a guy.. crying for me.. i'm touched and have the urge to say something.. but i held it in.. for me, for u, and for our future's sake.. Now everything's perfect.. i can do whatever i'm used to doing without anybody's protest.. and u could go and take anything u want for all i care... Coz now i'ts official that we're nothing anymore.. 1 years relationship goes down just like that.. I noe some ppl will tell me that i should hang on to u and make things work.. but i belive in my actions.. and i noe that for once in my life.. im doing something right for a change and most of all i'm doing something for myself... Move on is the words that i'll be whispering to you whenever i have the chance.. i still care bout u now but as a fren... nothing else..I'm sorry it had to turn out this way... But that is the path chosen by him.. i'm sorry..

Life..

2009-12-21T18:12:00.003+08:00

As u all may have noticed i have broken up with Abu and i really feel restless to write anything right now... i will update once i feel like it.. and that is soon...

27/11/09

2009-11-29T21:25:00.015+08:00

27/11/09

AidilAdha and Cuzzins Outing all wrapped altogether

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28/11/09

A date with my baby!

Sorie guys, i'm just toooo lazy to write.. i'll update soon ya..

On Cloud 9!!

2009-11-25T20:36:00.005+08:00

This feeling that i feel!!

I don't know why now whenever i think of him anywhere... i will smile to myself like a crazy person.. this feeling that i feel is like as if i fell in love with someone again.. but the thing is i felt this with my Abu.. Is it possible to fall in love with that person again wen u already love him with all ur heart??

Haizzz.... Nothing can describe the happiness that i feel rite now.. he's changed alot since our 1st year anniversary last week.. He act all gentleman-like around me now.. Its like the old him doesn't exist at all.. I simply love the man that he've become now.. haha.. I noticed this wen i met up with him yesterday.. He had on this goofy smile plastered on his face wen he saw me.. Den he hugged me and kissed me hard on my forehead.. Sweet rite..? heeee...

Yesterday we had a long talk about ourselves.. he had already open up with me a long time ago wen we had our first fight.. but now he opened up a little bit more than usual.. Last time wen i asked him about the first date that we had.. he would just avoid the topic and changed to a different subject.. But now wen i asked him how he felt wen he first saw me.. he kept on talking, explaining how he felt and how he come to ask for my number from my cousin.. Hehehe.. yeah, we sort of reminisce on the past which is not that long ago la..

You know, i cannot imagine myself being with anyone else and its the same as i cannot imagine if i were to break up with Abu.. Hmmph.. Choy!! I hope that doesn't happen... ever...

Anyway... yesterday i met up with him at my hometown there at ard 8 and we talked and talked just forgetting about the time and we look at the time.. it shows that we have been stting there and talking to each other for at least 3 hours.. Hah.. You know rite wen we're enjoying something we're doing, the time just goes by like seconds..haha..

By the way, tomorrow i'm going on an outing woth my class and we're planning or rather my teacher planned to watch the movie christmas carol on 3D.. Hah.. Boring rite i noe.. But wat to do.. Most of the class have agreed on that movie too.. Til den..

Studying..

2009-11-22T00:06:00.002+08:00

Studying la Kan...

Just Now i went to did my HRA project with Aisah n Faz.. It was ok.. we had fun, we ate at Marina Square's Mac there.. I had a lot to catch up on.. Coz wen Faz n Aisah were discussing the project.. I find myself lost at some places.. Faz had done alot on the proposal..

U see.. we had to make a proposal for a supposed client of ours.. and we had to recruit him and at the same time make plans for him so that he can better develop his skill and do a better job in future days.. in our company i mean..

So as i was saying.. the proposal was nearly done and all aisah and i had to do was answer a few questions from the book.. which was easy la coz the answers are all from the book.. We did our research while chilling in the library at esplanade there.. I admit that i haven't gone there since the big durian was built.. haha.. i noe.. kental kn.. but i'm not the type of gerl who likes to explore the new places once its being built.. ION Orchard pn blom jejak.. Mcmane?? Hahaha..

If u read Aisah's blog.. i did had a lil fight with Abu.. but it's just minor la.. I asked him to come down City Hall to meet me for a while.. N i asked him to msged me to conferm again la.. but he didn't acknowledged.. sooo.. i thought he didn't want to come down.. maybe bcoz him tired or lazy.. so.. wen my sis called and invited me to catch a movie with her and tag along with my some of my cousins.. I said yes..

And i called him la to tell him.. Coz i tell him everything if not he will yell at me if i miss out any lil bit of anything that's happening in my life.. Haha.. it can be annoying for some gerls.. They called it "Report Strength "..hehe.. But i don't mind coz thats the way he shows me that he care..

As i was saying... ya.. i told him.. and he flipped coz he said he was already at City Hall cuming to meet me.. So it goes on.. i asked him why he didn't acknowledged me and he asked me why i go and make sudden plans whereas i have already told him to come down.. So we fought..

Satu lib diam.. tap my suare je biseng..hahaha..

In the end i cancelled with my sis since i didn't have the money and so that she didn't have to treat me anything.. and i met up with him.. he was so handsome la!!!.. Haha.. After meeting up with him.. i chilled at Marina Steps there with faz, aisah and my Bucuk!.. heh...

I'm signing off now..daaa.. Enjoy the pics.. : )

CamWhores!! We took this wen we had a lil break from our studying tu.. hehehe.. :

Burok kn!!?!! Haha.. Although our faces suck.. I still like it.. heee...

Bugis Belo-ness

2009-11-18T20:31:00.007+08:00

Bugis Belo-ness..

On last Monday.. i went for an interview at City hall.. Although i have a job now but i feel that its not enough.. n i wanna find another job that pays a more beneficial amount.. I went to the Grand Park Hotel.. n asked to work in the indulge.. So hoped i got it..

After the short interview.. i accompanied aisah aka kid to bugis coz she wanted to buy shoes for skool.. n after which, we had dinner at Long John's Silver... Coming out of the fastfood joint.. we got bored.. and we found this one corner with the walls covered with grafitti.. So damn nice la..

I'll write again soon k.. gtg now.. daaaa...

1st is always the best..

2009-11-15T23:45:00.000+08:00

1st is always the best..

My relationship with him is getting better since that incident.. i forgave him but certainly i didn't forget it.. that was the thing that scarred me yet made us much more closer..so as you all know.. Today was the day that i have been waiting for.. It was pure bliss and no words can describe how hapie i was the whole day today.. For our first year anniversary, he treated me at pizza hut and surprised me with buying me the purse that i was eyeing that day wen i go out with him a few weeks before..

After we ate and bought the purse.. we did a lil window shopping and then chilled outside raffles city.. near the mrt station there..

Seriously sey.. i cannot describe how i'm feeling rite now.. Everything that i wanted him to do after all this time.. he did it just now.. and made me really fall in love with him all over again..

Since i don wan to forget all this precious moments.. i captured it in film... haha.. yes pictures is a must in my life.. Let the pictures tell the story k...

Outside Marina Square

At Pizza Hut

Outside Marina Square again

waiting for the mrt to arrive..hee

Near my block area there.. Yes he send me home..Hapie rite??

This is the purse he gave me.. Umm So Swceet!!

" Dear baby,

I'm so hapie that you knew exactly wat i'm comfortable with.. n since you are the one making it happen.. See how special it is.. I hope you realise now how much i love you and how much i'm scared of losing you.. if you're not here with me anymore.. i wouldn't know what to do.. Seriously.. i adore you too much.. N i know that you love me too.. Hee.. Happy 1st year anniversary Baby!! Muach!.."

Life

2009-11-12T21:10:00.003+08:00

Life

Everybody tends to be stubborn at times.. But being stubborn can bring pain in your life.. Physically, emotionally and mentally.. I just can't figure out why he's so stubborn.. Yes.. You can believe wat you want, just don't assume that everything you believe is rite..

Going through these days with you has been hard, really hard.. I can't stop myself from tearing up whenever i think of you.. i held on with you, just like as if i had to hold on for my life.. Every single thing that i did has proven that i learnt from my mistake..But why dear? Why can't you bring yourself to learn to trust me again..

Now i realised that love is not easy and that wonderful as they said.. In reality, love is a really really hard thing to go through.. Wen its at its ups, you will feel like you're the happiest person in the world.. But wen its at its downs, the most tragic and dreadful feeling will follow you.. N even if you had cried your heart out, it wouldn't be enough..

The hit that you gave me was like somebody throwing a brick at my face.. In a blink, it all happened.. I wasn't expecting it.. I SWEAR.. I didn't think you were like that.. I know my words ticked you off but that was exactly wat i was trying to do.. Hoping you would realise your mistake, but wat you reacted with was really surprising.. N really hurtful..

N now you're saying all over and over again.. " Baby, pls forgive me.." Eventhough wat you did was unforgivable, i still think that we can make it work.. But i don't want to feed your ego, so i have to keep quiet now.. Even though its killing me..

All you have to do now is just wait.. Wait for me k baby.. I'll cum to you whenever i'm ready.. I'm sorie..

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Hey

2009-11-05T19:25:00.005+08:00

The start of a new chapter..

Now when we are putting in our feet in a new year.. i really hope that we can make it last and forever won't make u mad or dissapointed.. For the past few weeks i have been neglecting u n i noe that u are really scared of losing me.. i am too now..

All i wanted was for u to love me the way u do now.. So yes, i think my plan to lure u to me worked.. i'm really touched wen u hold me the way u did.. i promise that i won't ever do watever shit to make u mad again.. i realise now that i really2 love u too much to ever let u go or make u like this ever again..

10 more days baby..i can't wait..

Secrets..

2009-11-04T22:41:00.001+08:00

Secrets....

Some things are better left alone.. and good enough as it is to be a secret.. Coz wen ppl noe... they might get hurt or mad... Somehow u will feel the burden of this secret and u will tend to have the urge to tell.. yes u promised to urself to be honest.. but certain things are better left unknown..

I have a secret from everybody at a certain point.. i even have a secret from my boyfriend.. its just like wen superman refused to tell that he's actualli an alien..

The reasons will resurface the moment u realise u've done something wrong.. Sometimes wen u're mad at that someone or started to dislike that someone.. u may do somethings that u promised to urself that u won't do..

The feeling that someone might have if they found out is the exact one that u don't wan to feel.. So u tend to pretend that u're in their shoes if u itch to tell.. and that thought automatically disappears.. So i'm sorry to say this but every living human in this world has secrets..

wat i'm saying is that.. i've done something wrong... But i will certainly not tell wat i've done and why i did it..

All i'm going to say is "I'm sorry baby...."

The Greates Outing ever!!

2009-11-03T19:40:00.000+08:00

The Greatest Outing Ever..

Last Friday was the greatest outing ever that i had with my gerlfrens.. Me,zura,aisah,lina and faz went out to city hall ferst.. and we chilled there while waiting for aisah to come after her sc thingy finished.. Ferst there was me and faz.. den we met up zura and lina..

After we chilled, aisah came and we decided to eat at an unknown restaurant..the reason is that we want to save up and we wanted to try out something new.. At first i thought that it would be expensive.. but it wasn't at all.. We ended up eating at The Fish Market.. i ordered a fried dory.. It was freakin' delicious..Haha.. The environment there was cozy and the service is really professional.. I love it..

Zura wanted to go karaoke but all of us rather felt that it was a bit boring some more it was getting late.. Sooo we decided to go SHEESHA!!!!! haha.. i dun noe why but i get kind of excited wen u speak of sheesha to me nowadays.. ok den we decided that we're going to walk there since its a short walk onie.. den wen we're walking.. ape lag,amek gamba ah!! I love pics.. so i'm not me if dont at least put one picture on my blog entry k guys.. or unless wen i'm feeling so down then i won't put any pic..

Once i reach the Sheesha place that Lina suggested to us.. I was screaming inside literally.. the place was so fun and cosy and Gerrk la.. It's called Nabin's.. it was so cool.. N we get to sit on the top floor which has the sofa and all.. A few mins there we literally converted the place into our own home.. We were lying there with our legs terkang-kang..Haha shh.. like we're in our own home.. hee.. i sooo love the place..

If u look closely at the ppl inside the place pics that we took..u'll see the guy we're all eyeing on(except for faz la..)..haha.. he's the guy that's werking there..

Soo did u spot the guy...? heh heh heh....til den...

Mixed Feelings..

2009-10-29T19:50:00.000+08:00

Mixed feelings..

I don noe why i'm feeling this way.. I'm feeling soooo insecure... to say that i don trust him...hmm.. i do actualli.. but i sometimes feel like he's up to no good.. out of nowhere.. This feelings really making me mad.. I'm having a headache rite now just thinking and thinking of this.. i don noe why i feel so suspicious of him.. whereas a part of me noe that he's loyal to me.. this part of me noes that he didn't do anything at all.. it's been a long time since i've talked to him on the phone for a long period of time..
Since my prepaid is low now..and his is too.. i just feel so damn insecure.. knape ni... i hate feeling this way really.. i don wan to feel this way.. but i can't help it!.. ish.. help me pls.. my head really hurts..
Bcoz of this feelings.. i always makes him mad with my interrogations.. yup.. really.. he said i was like a police officer asking him all this stupid questions.. I think all the questions that i really wanted to ask him did not surfaced.. yes its all settled actualli.. but theres still this few questions thats still stuck in mind..
i think i've kept it too deep until i myself can't take it myself.. erghh!! pls la.. how can i get this headache to stop..
When i asked him to called.. (using a public phone of coz..since his ppd is low..) he did fulfilled it but i can't seem to get the mindset of him being disloyal to me out of my head.. ya ALLAH why is this.. urgh..
The thought of him being in the same place with his ex then.. really scarred me..really badly.. i can't seem to trust him the way i did before.. Really made me sick.. really.. i noe he loves me.. and i love him soooo much.. but i don't noe why the hell this feelings daunt me..
If i love him..shouldn't i trust him..? Shouldn't i be happy that all the questions that i had was answered..? well almost all the questions.. why la am i like this? Why can't i be direct and ask him the questions that i really kept in my mind..Why...?
Is it wrong to feel this way? is it wrong? Afterall he've had an even more serious relationship with her than me.. URGH!!!! i really wanna noe all this...shud i ask him.. i'm really scared that if i bring all this up again another fight will be brewed..
i'll probably find a way to settle all this.. just wanna get it all out of my system.. oh god pls pls pls.. dun let this suspicions be true.. i really don wan to lose him..

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Hey..

2009-10-28T18:10:00.000+08:00

Hey..

i just got back from school.. school was boring with a capital B for me just now.. jad as usual la kan we took some pix.. dis time faz was with us.. yep.. she came to skool.. haha..

ok after skool..lina need to attend this talk and aisah was bz with her sc thing.. azura dun noe la where she went..she was absent just now.. so i went home with faz.. we boarded the bus.. my ez-link's credit has finished so i paid by cash..

I put in 55 cents in the cash box there.. den the uncle asks ' How much?" in a rude way plk tu.. i said '55 cents la..' in the same tone.. den he said..'where? u onie put 50 cents..' i looked inside..from my side of view kn,i can see the 5 cents terselit behind the 50 cents.. den i said ' there la behind the 50 cents..' u noe wat he replied.. 'where got..u onie put 50 cents la..' wah i was so embarassed there in front of the bus where all the ppl can see me.. with my fucked up face i put another 10 cents in the cash box and slide my eyes really sharply at the uncle.. hmmph.. buat malu org je..

i scolded the uncle at faz and she kept on laughing like hell until her cheekbones all hurt.. imagine that.. chibai.. i was soooo fed up with that uncle.. like i wan to ask his name and complain je!! eeee sot je...

haha..maseh geram ni.. pathetic eh.. psl 10 cents je nk mara.. haha..

so heres the pix i took at class..

i love my pix.. haha perasan eh..

Ape bdk gile tu buat je tau..haha..

Candid!!! The teacher saw us taking pix..haha.. Guess why i ternga-nga like tat.. i was holding the cam n i was saying 'Cepat laaaa' hahahaha...

p.s lag brape hari ni b?? cant wait cant wait cant wait sia.. Argh.. its making me mad actualli.. haha..

Birthday Boy..

2009-10-25T15:15:00.000+08:00

Birthday Boy..

Yesterday wen i finished werk.. i went to lakeside to meet him..as usual.. after around a few mins just hanging around there.. His fren called and invite us to celebrate his berthday at arab street.. since its a last min thing.. we get to go shisha and just chill for a while.. i went with abu..Shukri (his fren) and her gerl widya..

It was fun although it was a last min thing..i'm too lazy to write.. so just let the pics tell the story aites..

Nnt tup3 da 1 tahun kite eh b.. i will be happy wen that day cums..wait for my surprise for u k dear.. i love u bodo..

I think something's good coming my way..

2009-10-21T23:51:00.000+08:00

I think something's good coming my way..

Ferst of all,i wanna tell u tat everything's ok with me n abu.. I told him everything.. Everything from my heart was poured out to him.. He does that all because he was scared that if he showed too much feelings to me,i would betray him.. i told him how much i loved him and now he understood really how i felt towards him.. Things between me n him have been different lately.. good different i mean.. We started laughing and joking with each other.. Its just like the same feeling that i had for him since the ferst time that i met him..

As for the ex.. i dun noe wat to do.. She keeps msging him.. out of the blue plk tu..n mostly on the time wen i'm usually with him.. That was why i usually accused him blindly.. Ok i trust him now since he clarified everything but we will see if he really told the truth or not.. I'm hoping on wit's end that he won't cause any problem for our relationship..

I love him too much but if he still hurt me again.. I will have to do something rite.. I will just need to be strong..

Ok just now skool was great.. We had classes as usual but wen it got bored we started taking pics.. After skool we went to Suntec City and Marina Square.. Just chilling out.. It was fun la.. Too bad faz was not with us.. But if she was it wud be COMPLETE... it wud be much more exciting.. After that i straightaway met up with him at lakeside and we talked.. we talk alot now.. Guess we really starting to open up with each other.. I just love him.. He was so cute just now.. I don't know how to describe..

k let the pix tell the story aite..

Candid,but nice rite?

Aisah,me n azura..

Also with lina..

At suntec city..

Starbucks..

Models in front Marina Square..

My baby..

This pix was taken yesterday wen i met up with him to discuss about our relationship..

P.S Baby i love you...24 more days til our 1st year anniversary..but who's counting..let's enjoy every minute of it..MUACKS!!

Why do u have to do dis?

2009-10-19T00:26:00.000+08:00

Why do u have to do dis?

After all that i've done for u..after all that i've went thru for u..this is how u repay me..this ia how u say u love me..i've understand u too much..from ur status to ur bad habits..i've understand it all.. why can't u just show ppl that u're not like wat they say about u..why baby?

Did u ever loved me? Being with me,doing everything with me..didn't u ever feel anything..was it all just fun for u? well how bout my feelings..didn't u ever care how i feel..

it was hard being with u.. coz u've already been tat serious with that person..u've love her that much..Honestly it was hard b.. But i perservered thinking that u cud love me the way i cud..I guess i was wrong.. i guess u just don't freaking appreciate my kindness and my understanding to u huh?

I don't know wat i wanna do or say coz even if i say it all over again to u.. u wudn't wanna admit u're wrong.. why baby? why does this ever have to happen? Why do u have to do dis?

Wat did i ever do to deserve this? I tried my very best to make u happy and make dis relationship last.. But its just simply impossible..

Just tell me pls.. clarify to me.. shud i accept dis while being the one sacrificing everything.. Sacrificing my time,my money and my freedom...

N u treat me dis way.. Shud i accept dis? pls b..think..think very hard..u're 21 already..pls don't blaime me for everything anymore..i'm so tired syg!! I'm damn tired of fighting with u all the time about dis..

Why dont u evar get it? Why don't u understand that she wants us to break us up..She's doing this to lure u back..lureu away from me..Why can't u see it? She's slowly brainwashing u into believing that i'm always in the wrong.. Why b,Why can't u open ur eyes?

I still love u la Bodo!! Pls don't make dis happen..Pls save dis relationship if u still love me..

School Reopens

2009-10-17T13:52:00.000+08:00

School Reopens..

Last monday was the starting of another term in skool.. It was refreshing as i got to see all my frens again.. 3 weeks of holidays really made us miss each other.. There was one particular person that i was looking forward to meeting.. But as soon as the week goes on.. we got to know that, he got kicked out of skool bcoz of his grades and his attendance..

My jaw and aisah's was literally hanging open as we heard the news.. it was a really sad thing and we didn't expect any of it to ever happen.. All day,we (aisah n me) talked all about him.. how could this happen and wats his reaction and all..

But however wats past is past.. he told me that its ok for him as he is ready for ns and thinking of taking a private diploma in sumting that i'm not uite familiar with..

Me n aisah.....

Me n Lina..

Lina,faz,aisah n azura..

Me n Azura...

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On friday there was a fight... actualli Faz was un happy with one of us.. So the discussion went on..

Faz :aku tk psl uh lau krg benci aku ke tknk aku dlm clique krg,tapi ckp dpan2 la sial,tkya nk dua muker pe.

Aisah :tk,skrg,aku nk tahu ape witness tu ckp ngn kau??

faz :witness tu ckp..ader uh antara krg berempat tk suker aku..jadi,aku nk tnyer skrg..lau krg ader bbl sal aku admit skrg..sblom aku pam tu org..

Me :kau bleh blg tk specifically ape org tu ckp?susah sgt pe kau nk blg sape witness dier,ape dier ckp..lau cm gini,smpai mlm pon nie case tk abes..kiter bertapa jer uh pat sini..

Aisah : eh faz,aku da make it clear pt kau yg aku tk bbl sal kau..kau tahukn aku nyer org malas nk amek tahu sal org..aku uat hal aku sendiri..lau kau ckp org tu tk suker kau,nk uat kau left out..lau org tu akukn,aku tkkn tnyer kau ukak mulot uh mase kau tkder partner biler kiter uat project..tapi,aku tnyer kau agi,"eh faz,kau tkder partner pe??abeh tkkn sorg je sak?"...

faz :aku tahu..aku appreciate uh kau tnyer gitu..tapi,ni sial,musibat nie yg antara krg empat suke pe tgk aku left out..tk suker bleh bbl dpan2 pe..aku bleh fucked off dari clique nie lau dier tk suker..

Aisah: eh,kau jgn ckp gitu uh..kiter 5 org aru baek sak..kn sumer da agree nk start afresh,lupe sal lamer nyer hal..skrg,why dun kau ckp namer org tu,tnyer dier dpan2 ape motive dier??kn senang..lau cm gini biler nk game??aku nk kne gi SC jap agi..

faz: aku tknk..aku kasi tu org chance utk dier admit..

me :mepek sak..lau kau tungu cm nie,smpai biler2 pon kiter tk tahu sape antara kiter empat yg kau tk puas ati..aku tk phm uh..

Faz :tkpe..cm gini..aku kasi org tu msg aku mtk maaf smpai mlm sat..lau by sat mlm,dier tk mengaku jugak,aku sumpah dgn name mak aku 9 bulan,9 ari der lahirkn aku,aku pam tu bdk myer muke..jgn salahkn aku lau aku pam eh..

aisah:gasak kau uh..kau nk pam,kau kasi warning..biar aku jln dulu..aku tkle tgk gado..lau aku tgk gado,cnferm aku nk stopkn nyer..jadi,lau kau tknk aku stop kau..lebih baek kau kasi signal pat aku..haha!!

faz :tkpe..aku nk kau stay..sbb aku takot aku da tgh marah giler,aku tkle stop rembat tu bdk..jadi,lau kau ader at least kau le tahan aku..

so, we ended our talk..faz said antara kiter berempat...aisah,me,lina n zura dun lyke her in the clique and talk behind her..worst thing,dua muker...but,aisah n me were saved..bcoz faz said earlier tat both of us were not the ones.."aku respect kau ngn aisah uh sbb krg dua trustworthy..jadi,jgn takot krg dua bkn org tu.."so,tink...its either lina or zura??

Hey Fren...

2009-10-09T22:33:00.000+08:00

Hey Friend...

I didn't know wat went wrong .. I thought u knew me.. I thought u also knew why i contacted u.. I didn't think that i was meddling with ur feelings.. Yup,u're rite.. i didn't think.. i noe who u are and i noe who i am.. we are not at all at the same level.. i just dun noe y i feel this kind of chemistry between us.. is it just me or is it really there?

Well now we'll nvr know.. all the years being frens with u was really something and u really2 make me hapie.. i just can't explain it.. i noe all this happened bcoz of my selfishness.. if i cud rewind the time..i'll be happy to,and i won't repeat my mistake..

U said i talked like i knew things.. i know.. really... is the signals that u're giving wrong..? Or is it really there?If u're pissed bout something.. say it.. dun just keep quiet and avoid everything... i dun mind if u dun wanna still be my fren.. but at least let me know wats going on in ur head... at least a hint.. So i'll know wat i've done wrong..

Wats past is past.. i cannot do anything to change this.. all i'm left to do is saying i'm sorie.. i'm sorie fren.. really.. if i've hurt u in any way.. pls i dun wanna b enemies with u.. im sorie...

One boring Day at Werk..

2009-10-09T02:51:00.000+08:00

Working in swensens is fun but wen the crowd is slow.. it gets kinda booring... i've been working for some time now.. n i think i'm getting so used to being a waitress.. the job is not that bad la... Its very easy.. u just have to be as friendly as ever and also.. u need to be patient.. There was this one time.. the customer insisted on sitting in a reserved place.. we struggled slowly to persuade him to choose another seat.. he still insisted on that particular reserved seat.. I was so damn pissed by then but i still kept my cool.. as u noe rite.. "Customers are always right.."

He still didn't want to sit at a different table.. The customer started shouting and said that he didnt wan to eat at our swensens if we still didn't give him that seat.. With that,my fren shouted back.. N den the worst started to happen.. the customer tried to punch my fren (who is a guy btw).. N den... Den u figure out la wat happen to my fren..

Aniwaes.. just now was so damn boring la.. like i can read magazines in the food runner area.. til forever and nothing will disturb me..

I went for smoke break for as long as i could just to kill time.. which is running rather slower just nw.. Took a few pics during closing.. and after we closed up..

Enjoy.. it may be boring though..mostly pics of me je..k la k la..all pics of me actually..

Suntec... i took it coz i love the way the water from the fountain flows here..

Going To the City

2009-10-07T13:39:00.000+08:00

Yesterday,he called me and ask whether i wanted to follow him to City Hall ..I said ..U nk wat pe g city hall? Nk blanje i mkn pe..?.. With that comment, he made this sarcastic face and said ..Nk ikot tknk? Bnyk tanye plk makcik ni.. See i dun noe y he keeps calling me makcik (auntie).. Its not that i talk alot like a makcik rite?.. Heh aniwaes..i ended up following him.. He actually wanted to meet up with his friends at SMU.. he used to werk there as a cisco guard..

So ya we did that n my stomach started to grumble furiously.. Of coz la..i haven't eaten since morning.. just a few chicken wings thats all.. n den i complained to him and he act like he didn't care that his gf was really2 hungry.. i feel like walking off rite then and there.. but its not a pleasant thing to do in front of his frens..

Instead i just sat there practically sulking.. seeing me sulk he den stood up and said to his frens that he gtg.. The thing is he actually cared that i'm hungry.. it's just that he felt akward to leave his frens just after we arrived..

We ate at Sakura..I had the Beef fried rice.. umm my favourite.. While he had the Seafood fried rice.. he likes mee with soups actualli..but i urged him to try the rice.. we also ordered the fried wanton after tat we did a little window shopping..N den wen it's quite late we headed home and called it a day..

Here's some picture that i took

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My Family is my world... If i don't have them..i don't think i am still here.. i don't think i can be this strong.. Thanks especially to mama as u have always been there to support me and understand me.. i hope things will be better between us all after that incident.. including Abu.. May God bless us all.. Amin..

Introducing my family....

My sis(Shiqin) thinks she's vogue...Heh..

My Baby sister's so gumuk..Cute..

Us.. 2 years agooo..

My mama eh..not my sis..

Cute Right..

They think they just married with 1 child.. Yup thats my father..

Hanging Out..

2009-10-05T22:50:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i met up with him... at lakeside... Since he lives there we usually hang around there.. we didn't do much.... just surfed the net and when my batt is running low.. we went to the KFC near there and just ate the Banditto that i was craving since forever..

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Money is evil... yet everyone wants alot of money even me... Yes money can buy everything in Singapore.... Thats the good thing about it... as followed with everything else... such as if u have alot of money.. ppl will wan to b with u.. ppl will look up to u.. But money can lead to many bad things.. Money can make u fight with one another... Boyfriends with girlfriends,mother with daughter,sister with brother....any kind of ties can break bcoz of money...

I hate it wen ppl fight... especially those that i love..i don noe how to choose who to side on between them.. wen they fight,i pay the price... i'm the one who suffers... i'm the one who feel sad... they don't understand it.. all they care is they get wat they want... i guess i dun have a choice but to stay as calm as i can and deal with it all...

Having Fun..

2009-10-05T18:49:00.000+08:00

Secrets of Our Minds...

Girl Facts..

when a girl is mean to you after a break-up
she wants you back but she is too

scared she'll get hurt and knows
you're gone forever!

when you catch a girl glancing at you,
she wants you to look backand smile

When a girl bumps into your arm,
while walking with you she wants you to hold her hand

When she wants a hug
she will just stand there

When u break a girls heart
she still feels it when you run into each other 3 years later

When a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running through her mind..

When a girl is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply,,

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,
she is wondering how long you will be around

When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a few seconds,
SHE IS NOT FINE AT ALL

When a girl stares at you,
she is wondering why you are playing games

When a girl lays her head on your chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers forever

When a girl says she can't live without you,
she has made up her mind that you are her future

When a girl says, "I miss you,"
no one in this world can miss you more than that

Guy Facts...

When a guy calls you,
he wants to be with you

When a guy is quiet,
He's listening to you...

When a guy is not arguing,
He realizes he's wrong

When a guy says, "I'm fine" after a few minutes
he means it

When a guy stares at you,
he wishes you would care about him and wonders if you do

When your laying your head on a guy's chest,
he has the world

When a guy calls/texts/comments/messages you everyday,
he is in love

When a (good) guy tells you he loves you,
he means it

When a guy says he can't live without you,
he's with you till your done

When a guy says, "I miss you,"
he misses you more than you could have
ever missed him or anything else

Last Tuesday...

2009-10-02T16:20:00.000+08:00

The choice of that changed my life...

Some people think that their problems are way too hard for them to handle... problems such as fights with their family,their friends and even with their lover... but what they don't know is that those are really minor problems in life.. really2 minor...

Wat i've been through has really changed my life and it has also changed my way of thinking... i don't really know how to describe wat i've went through but i know that i don't want my frens or even anybody to go through that particular phase in their lifes too.. The pain is really2 unbearable.. frankly.. i tought i was going to die.. as i cannot stand the pain... Now that i finished it all... i then understand how much my mother love me and now i understand too that when they're scolding us.. it's always because of something that we did wrong..and not because that they're just simply crazy..

Everything is fine now.. But i'm trying really hard to cope with the pain that i feel mentally... the thought of him sometimes makes me cry.... n i wonder will he ever forgive me.. whether he knows how much i love him.. eventhough he's not here...

Well i will never know... but i wan him to know that even if i have another... he will always be my baby...

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Last tuesday... i went to bugis with... Yana!!! It's been a really long time since i saw her... So ya.. i really had fun although we only had a few hours of her time bcoz she had to meet up with her cousin... basically we went to watch Fame... it was good.. and we ate at KFC.. do a little window-shopping..well thats about it..

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Also last week was hari Raya.. For the first day.. we went to my datok's place at Ang Mo Kio.. i had fun..of course la..its like magic..all my cousins that was so small last year was even bigger than me now.. imagine that..

Then for the 2nd week i went out with those on my mother's side..we traveled in a van.. so crammy.. well rather than having to walk around so much in my heels..

Til here.. muacks!!

At Lasts!!!!

2009-10-01T23:03:00.000+08:00

At Last!!!!!

Hey.... u know wat?? last 2 weeks i went to the comex at suntec and at first i didn't intend to sign for anything at Singtel... But... when i thought about them giving out free laptops... why not... after all i didn't have to pay for anything... ok2..so at last..i own my own laptop now...wat a relief...

Btw about the subsidised laptop...i haven't heard any news from the teacher.. i don't even know wats taking them so long.. but ifi do get it..then its also good la.. as i'll own 2 laptops.. hehe..greedy sey...

i'm just informing u guys that i will be updating more often now..

Take note..

2009-08-27T13:33:00.000+08:00

Take Note...

Hello...i'm now in skool... doing my ofa...i'm really2 pissed... i've applied for the subsidised laptop from my skool from like months away... but still no news on whether i will get it or not... i'm really hoping i can get it so that i can update this dull blog often... Rite? Rite? Rite?

Who would want to view a boring blog...ok just pray for me that i will get that damn laptop as soon as possible... for now, i will update if only i have the opportunity... ok folks...? dun mind me... im really sorie.. theres actually alot going on in my life that i wan to share..k2...

And as you all know.. It's already fasting month... let's see how long i can last.. hmm...ok i gtg.. i'm sort of preparing for my ofa test tmrw... with no comp and all.. i'll have to make good use of this 2 hours that i have in class.. hmmph.. how sad...

k2..see u wen i see u...Mua!!!

FireBall!!

2009-08-13T12:46:00.000+08:00

FireBall !!!

I recently watched this Thailand movie titled Fireball... It was the best ever movie.. Heres the Story line..

Tai, a young man arrested on a crime charge, is discharged thanks to his twin brother Tan’s dogged help. After being set free, he finds Tan in a coma with severe injuries. Tan’s girlfriend, Pang, tells Tai that his brother got involved in some risky business to raise money to fight Tai’s case. Tai feels guilty that his problems brought his brother trouble. He then traces what happened to Tan, which ultimately leads him into illegal basketball gambling. Tai wants to find out who is behind this gambling and why his brother was beaten unconscious. He finally joins the “Fireball” team, a team which belongs to Hia Den and whose players include Singha, Kay, Ik, and Muek. In order to uncover the truth, Tai trades many things—possibly even his life.

You know, wen i watched it ... I cannot stop watching it again and again and again and again! Its like so damn exciting la!! Imagine Basketball mix with alots of Muay Thai...

Heres some shots from the movie..

IQ!!!!

Tai!!!

Better Catch it... i feel like a crazy person promoting this movie.. But u Should really catch this movie... haaa...!!!

Sudden things do happen

2009-08-05T14:05:00.000+08:00

Sudden things do happen..

Sometimes when things happens you just have to decide what you wanna do in life... Do you just wanna move on and cope with all these happenings or would you really like to deny everything and make it as if nothing has happened...

To really move on, you have to have the courage and patience to endure every single minute in this situation... To learn to love, to care and be a new person and a better one all at once.... So that you know you don't give out the negative side to those who are innocent and ready to start on a new life yet being positive about it...

To deny everything, its easy... but do you have the strength to know that you've done something that is really unforgivable such as killing another human being, such as destroying a life, such as stopping a heartbeat... Can you carry the memory of being a person in denial? Some people may hate what you have done... But your reasons may keep them quiet... Eventhough they think they understand you... They really don't...

i'm left all alone, thinking what i wanna do... But i don't have all the time in the world... Someday, some moment... the truth will be out and all the questions that people asks will be answered... All i have to do now is pray that i have him (God) by my side as i go through this phase in my life...

Something That Lasts

2009-07-23T12:26:00.000+08:00

Something that Lasts..

Since 15 nov 2008...

I've been attached to one guy named Abuzar Bin Selamat...

Nothing can describe the love that we shared...

There is no secrets between me n him..

We had our rough times through this 8 mths..

But we resolved it and still go on with our relationships...

Here's some pictures of me n him...

Until den ...i wish that our relationship really last til the end..

A new beginning...

2009-07-22T14:13:00.000+08:00

A new Beginning..

My name is Noradelyn....
As some ppl have known, i have made a blog last time..

But due to the fact that my computer broke down and i had to move and all...

i had to do wat needs to be done..

So i delete my blog..

As it wouldn't be a blog if i didn't update it often rite..

K let me refresh ur memory..

In the past i used to school in msl..

which is Marsiling Secondary School..

I spent 5 years in that school..

and so called sailed...

Now i'm currently studying business in

ITE College West...

in Clementi Campus...

I'm taking Higher Nitec in Business Admin..

This is some pictures of me...

Me in the Toilet..Hee..

Like Sotong rite me...

In the karaoke lounge wif my frens

Mee in my school uniform in my old home..

Just a simple me..